Keep Planting

There is an older song we use to sing alot when we were youth pastoring at our church. It was a chorus that we would sing with the choir:
"There is a healing in Jesus
No matter what your going through
Come to the table of mercy
There is a healing for you "
That chorus has been on my heart the past week or so as I have started the journey of healing in my heart. After a episode in my life where I have never really found myself before, a period of time where honestly I have just become jaded by the continuous cycle of things and situations that never seemed to change I realized that I didn't like how I was beginning to feel. Disappointed, hurt, angry, without understanding, pushed away and just abandoned all left me with one feeling.....the beginning of bitterness. Several weeks ago on a Sunday morning I felt like the Lord spoke to my heart and said its time to step out of the way and let me begin to heal you. Wow! It wasn't really until that moment that I realized what I was becoming. But no one can reveal to you who you really are and what HE really see's but the Lord himself. As humble as I know how I said , " do it Lord" !
Another week passed by full of more questions and struggles and more hurt. As I kept going back to the Word the Lord gave me I begin to question how He can heal when it's still coming full throttle. Yet I trust Him!
Yesterday during worship service there was such a freedom and presence of the Lord with us. I just felt like I laid back in His arms and rested. The sermon was awesome and referenced us being found faithful. (you can listen online at www.libertycog.org). I confess that it's been a struggle to not want to walk away from all of it at times. But each and every one of those things are committed to God and covered by his Word in prayer. As the altar service began I felt a drawing to go and to pray. The Lord encouraged my heart and the Word of the Lord spoken by his prophet was , "keep planting, keep planting, don't quit! A break through is coming!"

Today I stand on HIS Word. I don't understand everything, I don't know what I will face tomorrow but I know that God has called me to lead by example to teach his Word and to help shepherd His flock with my husband. Along the way I know I will face heartache, trials and tribulations not just as I work in church but also in my personal life. I have to trust and believe that it's all for a greater purpose.

If you feel like you are becoming weighted down with anger, hurt or bitterness. Or maybe you just don't understand where the Lord is leading you. Do not become weary in well doing. But just keep planting! Keep running the race. We are almost HOME!